Feeling my age

      I guess it's knowing that 35 is just over a month away that got me thinking the deeper thoughts. I rarely use this blog for anything besides pictures and videos but tonight I just felt like writing. 2 decades ago I was filled with dread about the future but at the same time yearning for some sort of independence that I probably wanted my parents to pay for. I have said many times that teachers and EAs have a special kind of patience. To be honest, I think only really good and really dedicated parents surpass teachers and EAs when it comes to patience. It boggles my mind when I look back upon my journal entries from my teen years and how bloody arrogant I was at times. My sister is 4 years my junior and we had some rough times - how did our parents put up with it all? I humbly bow to all teachers, EAs, and especially to my parents for their near-boundless patience. You find it within you every day to go to those places I cannot and you work so hard wondering if your efforts may be for naught at the end of the 13-18 years. Pranam.
      2005 continues to be a special year for me for two reasons. Firstly, our family had to say goodbye to one of the most wonderful and amazing people I have ever shared the path with. Jessie Beaudin was only 78 when pancreatic cancer came to town and drew her away. I will never forget all the times she brought my sister and I downtown to do a bit of shopping, all the wonderful meals and card games, and all the love she brought to us. It was a very hard year for my Dad and especially for my Grandpa, and I know Grandma will be on my Dad's mind a fair bit this year. Secondly, around the time Grandma passed away, I was looking into taking a course at RRC. Mom saw I was getting tired of working the front end and she asked me if I'd ever thought of being a library technician. I applied and the rest is history.
       So here I am at the tail-end of 34 and running through the deep questions. I've probably gone over such questions in my journals before and I probably have part-answers to them. Tonight I decided to draw up a quick list of 10 such questions. In no particular order...

1. Would you rather be too tall (6'5 and up) or too short (5'0 and down)?
2. Does your dream job match your current job?
3. Do you remember your dreams in the morning?
4. Assuming money and time were of no concern, would you rather have pets or kids?
5. Do you re-read books? How often and why?
6. Which is worse for you? High humidity or dry heat?
7. Does the approach of death scare you?
8. Do you (or did you once) keep a journal? Why did you give it up?
9. Was there a birthday you were excited about or one that you dreaded?
10. Do you yearn for the past or are you content with the present?

    I haven't included my answers to these questions - these are just for the handful of people who come here to read my meaningless scribbles. If you do want my take on these questions, feel free to ask in the comments dealie. May you all have a wonderful weekend and may you all remain in light.

Goals... so far

Been thinking about my goals for the future, and I'm coming to the conclusion that condo is the way to go, but not for a couple of years. Once I've paid off my car, which won't happen for another couple of years, I'll look toward getting a mortgage and my own little condo unit. Feeling so mature at this point, which is rather amusing to me. For now, I'm just going to continue with my brand new lease (sublet no more) and keep paying down my car. I broke 11,000 kms the other day, so, when I do the math, I should hit 100,000 kms in another nine years. I suspect I'll have moved on to another car by then. Assuming hybrids have gone down in price in the next five years. Geez, I'm feeling like such an adult right now. Hopefully that feeling will go away before long.
Had a conversation with my amazing Dad about condos, houses, and apartments. Vacancy rate here in Winnipeg is 1%, but that is going to change, what with all the seniors complexes going up all the time. My wonderful Grandpa lives in one such complex, and there are 60-some people waiting to get into that building (and the three or four like it). That means that 60 houses, condos, and apartments will be going on the market before long. This thought sort've cheered me up, but it made me wonder if there are just too many people alive on the planet today. I know that probably sounds a little negative, but it's how I feel today (and have for the last year or so).
I finished reading Joyce Milgaard's book 'A mother's story' the other day for the third time. I think I'm done with that book now, having looked through it three times over the last few years. It was part of my 'Two Year List', and now I'm done with it. I have yet to start a 'Five Year List', but I highly doubt I'll need to start such a list. Unless 'Indestructible truth' blows me away so much that I feel I need to revisit it in 5 years. I suppose such could happen, but that would leave me with three ongoing lists. I suspect this five year list would be much shorter than either of the other two lists, but no need to cross that bridge until I come to it.
Reading 'Inkspell' right now. Darn Funke! I can't put this book down for long! Taking a break just to mess around in my blog, but I'll be going back to it ASAP. Darn! Okay, this meaningless drivel is done for the week. Maybe I'll have something useful to share with you next time. BYE.